Many years ago, a personal event occurred that altered my perspective on life and the world around me. I was depressed to the point that I was crying every day. When I started missing work, I realized I needed professional help. Eventually it was necessary to take a medical leave of absence from work.
The simple act of getting out of bed became an ordeal. Life was safer and cozier in my bed. If it hadn’t been for my beloved dog who pulled and tugged on my bed covers forcing me to get up to take him out, I would have stayed in bed all day and night.
It was a very difficult time in my life; and I often wondered why I fell into this state of being, and how I was going to heal and get back to living my life again. I thought I was stronger than this, that this couldn’t be happening to me. But it was.
This experience has helped me to be more compassionate to those who are suffering from depression. I understand what they are going through and can give them love and support.
During one of my darkest moments, I felt God’s love and presence. Then I saw the hand of Jesus reaching out to pull me up. This was a profound moment – one I will always remember.
I understand now that God never left me, God was always there. All I needed to do was pause, breathe, and be in the present moment.
God is always with us.
I was fortunate to have dear friends who sent gifts and kind letters and cards encouraging me to continue with my healing process.
When I was strong enough, I knew that I could move on with my life, letting go of the past and carrying on with courage and grace.
I was grateful that I was well again, and grateful (as I am today) to my doctors, family, friends and coworkers who were there for me during that very difficult time in my life.
If my story connects with you, I hope you know – it does get better.
If you are experiencing depression or are currently going through a difficult time, it is through trust, love, and courage that things will change, and life will get better. Remind yourself often that you are love, loved and loveable.
1-800-273-8255 National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
The Lifeline and 988